Ok .. by now probably all of you know about his death.
I just want to write this journal to feel a little better, since the day he committed suicide and I'm just sad and can't stop crying. No celebrity death ever has effected me this way, EVER! And no one will.

It's because I'm like the rest of LP fans, I grew up to their songs .. his voice .. his screams
Their songs got me through shit and helped me move on and feel a little less .. lonely. I'm pretty sure you've read this everywhere .. everyone is saying this .. because that what Chester really did to us. He helped a lot through his music and words to over-come some depression and feel understood a bit, so hearing that he decided to take his own life is so so devastating!

We all listened to his songs, the lyrics .. but none has "really listened"! All these years he was crying out for help, and I saw in an interview him clearly stating that he shouldn't be left alone .. with his own mind! So why the fuck was he alone especially on his late dear friend birthday?!!

I'm sorry Chester, none of us could've been there for you ..

I'm again going through deep depression, after thinking I'm capable of getting over it .. but I guess it never really leaves you .. it lingers there deep inside just waiting.

Rest in peace Chester, you are being dearly missed.